BIG DAY!!!!!!

Big Days, Kids!  No, i didn't do anything extreme... Wanna guess what happened??!?!?!

I WORE REAL CLOTHES!  And a bra.  Granted, it is a sports bra, but it still soooo counts!  I am so tired of wearing jammies and sweat pants.  I decided this morning to put on real clothes. I found some loose fitting ones.  Hell, most of my clothes are loose fitting at this moment!  None the less, I found some pants that are comfy and a clean t-shirt.  Let me tell you... THEY FELT GREAT!  I just went out to get some lab work done, like I said, nothing extreme.  I promptly came home and took a nap, but I still went out wearing real clothes... That is HUGE in my world!

SHOCK and AWE...

When I started this process, I didn't really believe that I was going to loose weight.  I mean, sure, it works for other people, It MIGHT work for me.  I was hoping it would.  Guess what!?!?!?  It is working for me!  I AM loosing weight.  I don't know where it is going, but as long as it is going off of me!  I hadn't stepped on the scale in about 3 days.  I was expecting to be a few pounds down.  I was more than a few pounds down.  I was almost 11 pounds down!!!!!  My BMI is dropping, my weight is dropping.  My energy is still a bit low, but that is changing too.  I know my body is just trying to heal itself.  Somedays are better than others, and that is ok.  I am learning that in a big way!  I think I just have to give my permission to rest when I need it, to sleep if I need it.

Highlights of my day:

Got out of the house and took a drive with hubbers!

Ultimate Snacks and other things!

I have done it!  I have found the PERFECT snack!!!  You can congratulate me now!

With WLS, I have had to give up some things.  Salty, white carb loaded snacks being one of them.  Let me tell you some thing... I am a salty snack kinda gal.  I love me some crisps and some pretzels!!!  I could eat an entire bag of said snacks!  NO MORE, MY FRIEND.

I can't eat much of anything these days.  What I can eat has to have flavor and purpose.  No more willy nilly snacking for me.  Since I am only putting very small quantities of food in my body, they have to be of the best quality!!!

The perfect snack has been invented an I have found it!!!!!  It is called Just the Cheese!  And that is all it is!  You know those crispy bits of cheese on the edges of pans and how everyone fights for them?!  That is what this is.  It is baked bits of REAL cheese it a tiny package for all to enjoy!  They come in a ton of flavors, but I like the Jalepeno ones!  One bag is one serving.  How easy is that?!!?  No guessing games on the serving size.  They also have as much protein and calcium as one glass of milk!

*This isn't a paid blog, but hey, if they wanna pay me, I'd love that!!!!

Highlights of my day:

*Getting a pedicure with a great friend
*Making din din for the hubbers and I
*Naps... I Love naps!!!!!

That's a spicy meatball!!!

I know all of you may be wondering why I bother to blog.  Let me tell you.  I am blogging so that I can remember.  I want to remember EVERYTHING!  This is life changing, ya know!!! :)  Good, bad, long or short!

Today, I ate a meatball.  It was all saucy and cheesy and soft.  AND OH SO YUMMO!!!!!!  You read that right... A meatball.  As in singular, one, not a plethora!  I have never just eaten one meatball before.  My plate looked a little lonely, however, I knew I couldn't eat more than one!

I am mourning the loss of my old comfort foods, how can you not?!?!?  It will get easier and easier over time to say "What comfort foods?!??!"  LOL

Highlights of my day...

Here are some highlights of my day!  I am writing them down so I can look back and see how a pretty low day was turned around!!!

* Got to skype with my bestest pal for a bit.
* Didn't throw up today!
* Got an unexpected package from family back home.
* Was able to laugh without hurting TOOOO much.

I need a reminder that this isn't a horrible choice, thought it feels like it sometimes.  Yeah, it has been a hard week.  however, it wasn't all bad!!!!

Worn out, but happy, mostly!

I REFUSE to feel guilty for taking naps and not doing anything.  Having said that, I can now tell you that I do indeed feel a bit guilty taking naps and not doing much.  I feel like I SHOULD be doing something, but then I remember that i had MAJOR surgery.  My body is just trying to heal and get all better.  I am writing this more for me than for y'all!  I have to be the one to remember this!!!!

As a shower wears me out at this point, resting is a GOOD option!  I'll keep on resting until I feel better!

Yesterday was rough....

The title says it all.  It was a really rough one yesterday.  I was tired, sick, whiny, and an all around mess.

I got up in the morning fairly early because I had a doc appointment.  I am glad I got to see my GP.  I really do love her.  I had to go get my dressings changed.  That was the easiest part of my day!

When I got home, NOTHING sounded good.  And I do mean nothing.  I ate because I had to.  I didn't want to watch yet another episode of anything on tv.  No movies sounded great.  You know that feeling?  Then I started to feel sick to my tummy.  Barfy, crampy.  Just all around not good.  I decided to go take a nap.  Maybe a nap is what I needed.  So, up I trekked to the guest room.  Nope, I am STILL not sleeping in my room.  I can't yet.  I miss it!  I miss sleeping with my hubbers!  I was out like a light for several hours, apparently!

I woke up feeling a bit better, but still bored outta my freaking mind.  Tv didn't look good, movies didn't look good, even video games didn't look good.  I guess this is all part of the process.  I have to remind myself that I JUST had major surgery.  I can't be superwoman yet.

Maybe today will be better!  Here's hoping!

A little more about WLS.

For those of you that may be wondering, and I know ALL of you are.  This is going to be a kinda technical  post, but that's ok!!!

The average human stomach is about the size of a football.  Mine was bigger that that because, well, I am fat!  :)  After WLS, my stomach is now about the size of an egg!  Here is a great visual for you...

See!  It is a HUGE difference.  I will NOT be able to eat near as much as I could!  If I attempt to do so, I will get violently ill!  No one wants that.  Trust me.

Here is what my tummy looks like now...

See, I told you... kinda technical!!!

My whole relationship with food is changing.  I am basically starting over and re-learning how to eat.  I am on a liquid diet as per my medical posse's instructions.  This is for 3 weeks!  I was dreading it, honestly!  How can I, a woman who lovers her some good eats, do nothing but drink for three weeks!?!?!?!?  Well, guess what?  I am doing it!!!  And with flying colors, too!  I am simply NOT hungry.  It is a nice feeling.  It is a learning curve, for sure.  

Because I was able to undergo this surgery, my life has been extended.  My Type II Diabetes will go away, my sleep apnea and high blood pressure will be gone too!  Not to mention, I will be able to walk up the stairs in my house without having to stop and catch my breath!

My goals may seem silly to you, however, they are pretty significant to me.  Let me tell you about them, then you can keep me accountable!

First, I want to be able to jog a 5K.  Yep, JOG!  As in don't stop, no walking, JOG!!!!  

Next I want to be able to wear a FABULOUS pair of heels and ROCK THEM!!!

Those are my goals for now, I am sure I will have more!

Less roadkill, more human

It has been a LOOOOOOOOOONG week.  If you don't know what has been going on then you just aren't cool!  Just kidding!!!  I have had WLS this past week.

Hubby and I made our way to London on Friday.  It was a fun ride on the tube.  We got to London and walked in the FREEEEEEEZING cold to hubber's hotel!  We hung out, had dindin and then made our way to the hospital.

The hospital was EXTREMELY nice.  I had my very own room with on-suite bathroom.  WOO HOO!
As we got checked in and settled, they came to get a sample of blood.  The nurse had no idea what the heck she was doing!  Word to the wise, my arm isn't a pin cushion!!!!  Hubby left and then the "IFs" happened!  You know... What if?  That is really the stupidest question around!  I had to ask for a sleeping tablet just so my mind would be able to rest!

Me in all my gear, getting ready to go into theater!

Saturday morning dawns nice and early.  Of course, I am awake already as the sleeping pill had less of an effect on me.  The nurse comes in to get me.  I AM OFF!!!!!  There are so many emotions racing through my brain at that moment.  I get to this TINY room with my anesthesiologist waiting.  They lie me down and start searching for a vein.  They eventually had to use an ultra sound to find one.

I don't remember much after that.  Apparently, everything went well.  I woke up!!!!  HA!

The next few days are a blur of morphine induced haze!!!  I got up, moved around.  You know the drill!

Then on Wed, they told me I could go home!  HOME!  YAYERS!  That had never sounded so good.  One little thing standing in my way, though.  GETTING HOME!  Hubby rented a car (ours isn't reliable enough) and came and fetched me.  I hope and pray that I will never have to do anything like that again! The ride was AWFUL!!!!!  Every bump, pot hole, crack.  You name it, we hit it!

Finally we arrived home.  YAY for my own bed and toilet!  The first day home was the roughest because of the ride home.  I couldn't seem to get comfy!  Which isn't that unusual considering I had just had MAJOR tummy surgery!

Every day is getting better.  Less pain, less roadkill, more human.  I thought the liquid diet would be hard.  It isn't!  AT ALL!  I have to force my self to drink because I am simply not hungry. This is huge for me.  I was ALWAYS hungry!!!!

Now, I am simply resting and enjoying my time at home!

Short but sweet....

Hey Everyone....

First, let me say thank you for your thoughts and prayers.  KEEP 'EM COMING!!!!

I am still in the hospital, but alert enough to be playing a bit on the computer.  The surgery went well and all is going according to my medical posse... and believe me.. it is a posse!!!!

The recovery time is going to a bit hellish, but will be well worth it!!!

Hopefully, I can go home tomorrow (Wed)!

Highlights of the day:

* Getting my IV out in a little bit!  :)