Clearing ALL the clutter...

I am on a journey.  One of cleaning up my body so it can work well again.  Along with cleaning up my body, I am cleaning up my house.  I think this goes hand in hand.  Cleaning up where I live, so I can continue to clean up HOW I live.

I have to keep reminding myself that the house nor I got this way overnight.  It will take some time to clear all the rubble out!  As of last night, I have counter tops in my kitchen.  I have a stove top again!  I have clean dishes!  You may be asking yourselves, "Why on earth is this a reason to celebrate?"  WELL... I haven't seen my counter tops since my birthday, IN AUGUST!  I hadn't felt well enough to clean or do ANYTHING.  It is miserable not being able to do anything, while looking normal.  People start to think you are crazy and that you are simply acting like you can't do anything.  It is a frustrating thing, trust me!  I am glad that I was validated by my doc.  

I am slowly starting to feel better.  As I start feeling better, I start doing more!  

Let's clear all the clutter and simplify!

And now for something COMPLETELY frivolous...

Happy Friday!

Not a size 5

Beefy, big, blimp, bovine, brawny, broad, bulging, bulky, bull, burly, butter-ball, chunky, corpulent, distended, dumpy, elephantine, fleshy, gargantuan, gross, heavy, heavyset, hefty, husky, inflated, jelly-belly, lard, large, meaty, obese, oversize, paunchy, plump, plumpish, ponder-ous, porcine, portly, potbellied, pudgy, roly-poly, rotund, solid, stout, swollen, thickset, weighty, whale like, and my personal favorite... FAT!  


Yep, I have been called all of these and more.  You know what?!?!?  It is ok.  They can call me whatever they like.  I am all those things... AND I LOVE MYSELF!  It has taken me MANY years to be ok with who I am.  Yes, I am loosing weight.  This is for one reason only... I want to be healthy.  I will never be a size 5.  I am not built for it!  I will, however be the healthiest that I can.  


I am the belly of the ball, Baby!  

Sleeping? Yes, please!

I hear that sleeping is a huge, ginormous part of getting healthy.  I hear that establishing a regular sleep pattern helps with this whole process.  Yeah... I hear a lot!  This is one area that I can't seem to get the hang of!  The sleeping during the night and being awake during the day thing.  Maybe I am just a backwards type of gal (Really, this statement shocks you?  Really?)  It seems that I get my best sleep during the hours of 8 am and 3 pm.  This is counter productive since, you know, life happens during the day!  Nothing is open when I am awake, so I can't run my errands or anything.  You are probably asking your self "What on EARTH does she do all bloody night?"  Well, I watch A LOT of bad tv and PSAs.  When I was younger, I had NO problems sleeping.  None whatsoever!  I could sleep with the best of 'em!  Rip Van Winkle had nothin' on me!  Now, I am just begging the Sandman to pay me a visit!  Just like everything else, this too will take time.  I have to remember that.  I didn't get this way overnight, it is going to take awhile to get it changed...
Please Mr. Sandman, bring me a dream!!!!!

I am MAD!

All my life, it seems, I have had issues with food and everything surrounding eating.  I was always bigger than the rest of my family and friends.  Once, my sister was at a slumber party and overheard my friends talking about me.  They were asking why I ate so much all of the time.  She in turn told my mom.  My mom, of course, told me.  She then told me that that statement alone should bother me.  Of course it bothered me.  I didn't fit in, literally.  Fast forward a few years, my family was out to dinner one night.  They told all of us (my sisters and I) that for New Year's we should all get healthy, as a family.  As it turns out, I was the one that was that they wanted to "get healthy".  I was put on every diet imaginable.  The fen fen diet, the no carb diet... I could go on.  I am making out my parents to be heartless.  They aren't. They were simply worried that I was becoming obese.  I think that they didn't know what to make of me because I was different.  I didn't look like them AT ALL, I still don't.  Fast Forward a few more years and now I am all grown up!  I still have issues with being a bigger gal, but I don't let them really bother me.  I decided to live my life the best that I can and to eat what I wanted!  I love food!  Love it.  The smells, the tastes.  There are so many types of food.  Now with this diagnoses, ALL my old fears and thoughts have come up again.  I am mad!  Mad as hell!  I can't eat what I want.  For so many years, I have been eating what I want.  Now, it feels like my parents are telling me what I can and can't eat again.  Ok, so It isn't my parents, this time it is the doc, but it feels the same.  It makes me SO mad!

I am not over the mad yet.  I haven't really let myself feel the mad yet.  I know it will pass, but for now, I am going to be mad for a bit.

Lazy day.

Today is Saturday.  TODAY IS SATURDAY!!!!!!!!  WOOO HOOO... do you know what that means?  Lazy day!  It has been an extremely long week.  I am glad it is almost over.  I need a break! Today is a do nothing and love it day!  Today is a day that I can take a nap and not feel guilty.  I love saturdays!

Make it ahead...

In our house, we tend to lean towards the super quick, throw it in the microwave types of food.  Well, we can't do that any more.  Do you know how much junk is in processed food!?  WAY too much for our new lifestyle!  I can't even pronounce most of the ingredients!

As I have said before, breaky is becoming MUCHO improtante in our house.  Well, immediately this presents a problem.  What on earth do I fix for hubby before he runs out the door!?!?!?!?  I want him to have something that will stick to his ribs and be satisfying so he can "be all that he can be".  Wait, isn't that an Army thing?  Well, I want him to be the Air Force equivalent of that!

I have come up with something I think will work nicely!  I know I am not the first person to think of this.  I am sure you can find more recipes out there in bloggyland.

Ok.. My first recipe!

Quiche cups.

These handy dandy, perfectly portioned cups can be reheated in the microwave in a minute or two!!!  WOO HOO!!!!  This is perfect for when hubby has to run!

Now here is how you can make them...

• Preheat your oven to about 350.
• Scramble some eggs, you could use egg substitute as well.
• Add veggies, lean cooked/cooled meat, and cheese.  You could use whatever you have on hand.  
• Pour the egg mixture into a muffin tin.  You could use paper liners, but I didn't have any... so I skipped that part!
• Bake at 350 for about 20-25 min depending on your oven.  

VOILA!!!  You have Quiche cups.  Let them cool and them pop them in the freezer!  They'll keep for a few months.  You can store them in a zipper top bag!

*Don't judge my photo... It isn't the best, but I will be getting better!!!!